I continually wonder why some of us can see our lives as they are, but many of us cannot or will not. I see and feel everything you've described, and I also know the cause of our anguish. You can't unsee it once you see it, but why some of us see it so clearly while others cannot mystifies me.

It's lonely to see it and it's lonely to be blinded by/ignore it, but at least seeing it provides some clarity.